So just I got bullied by some kids. They made fun of my voice.
I finally thought 8th grade was gonna be a good year. It wasnt. I was first called fat, stinky, dumb, and lots of curse words. I went to school with my hair wet one day because I took a shower that morning ( I normally shower at night). This kid asked if I knew about a blow dryer for my hair Then it all got worse when this kid kicked me and now him and his friend are bullying me for lying about it even though it happend and they laugh at me in class when I stutter or get an answer wrong. There has been times when I went to the bathroom in tears. But the only way to have that torment stop is to go to an adult. Even if your scared. I didnt and it got worse and worse.
While driving down the street near my school 4 boys I have never seen before pulled alongside of my car and motioned for me to roll down the window. I did, thinking they were lost or something. That’s when one of them yelled out, “You’re f***ing ugly!” Then all four of them laughed like it was the funniest thing they’ve ever heard. I had no idea who they were and was really hurt and baffled that they took time out of their day to be so cruel and horrible to someone. I felt disgusting and raced home where I cried alone in my room, too embarrassed to tell anyone about what had just happened. My self-esteem never recovered and I still feel terrible about the way I look because of them.
I´ve been bullied, in many schools for different reasons, I´ve been bullied because of my health,(including my mental health, which hurts me the most) , my personality (When I was in middle school most my classmates used to like things I wasn’t interesting in, I was more into playing games outside, than watching a TV Show, for example) for my appearance, etc, in fewer words, I have been bullied almost all my life because, something I didn’t choose, being who I am.
Of course that took a huge impact on my self-esteem.
My self image is still horrible, I can’t look at myself at the mirror without thinking something horrible about me.
The worst part about bullying is not the bullying itself, but the way you start bullying yourself after that.
Thats why I decide to post my story here.
I want to say some things to anyone who is being bullied right now:
1st: Its not your fault!Okay? I Know it might be hard to believe sometimes, but you didn’t cause the bullying,I don’t know who you are, but I know you are a beautiful person and you matter so much, even if you don’t believe it, I swear its true.
2nd: It has nothing to do with you! Most of the times the bully has problems with their own life and they bully because they want to fell less miserable by making someone else suffer. I know it might make no sense, (because it doesn’t solve their problems either) but thats what they do, maybe
3rd: I know, sometimes it might be hard to tell an adult and sometimes the adult might even be the bully (and this is horrible) but you need to find someone, okay, probably you have tried to tell and it didn’t work, it´s fine, just look for someone else, till you find the right person
4rth: Please, don’t be a bully. You might be so tired of being bullied that you might start thinking about doing the thing they do with you, but come on! Again you are a good and beautiful person and you don’t want to feel guilty of being like them.
5th: When I asked you not to bully others, that includes yourself. Okay so, this people are being mean to you, I know, its hard, but isn’t it hard enough that they treat you badly? Don’t do the same s*it they do, you have at least to try to be nice whit yourself, those people might be bullying you for a long time, but you are the only one who is going to be with you your whole life and it´s better to be your friend than your enemy.
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So, Some of the things that I hear very often are, You’re worthless, you’re a whale, go back home to you’re ocean, HaHa you’re parents are drug addicts that’s why you’re so ugly. When in fact that’s not the truth, the truth is i just am thick boned. I love my curves, just because i’m bigger doesn’t mean i don’t fit in, or i’m worthless. It just means i have lots more to love. I’m different than others and i don’t really have problems like that. I try ignoring people but in fact it hurts more than ever because i know what our world has came to. Kids are judging what because i’m not a size 0 and i don’t wear gucci. It hurts to be called names more than it normally does because i deal with it everywhere that i go.
I’m starting to slowly drift into an endless cycle of wishing I looked different, I wish I was skinnier, my hips weren’t wide, that I didn’t have love handles, that I looked prettier, that I fit in, that I was just someone, not me. But I’m cursed with all these things and I do get called fat and get bullied for it. This kid was telling me if I was on the Titanic it would sink because of me, that I should work out, that I should diet, and with the ship id sink right along. It does sting even if I’ve been called it many times. This kid said I was “thick” and some other kid said “It’s the donuts.” and the same donut kid said “if (my name) lost half a pound her and (kid people ship me with) would look good together.” and it does sting and I do feel like crying but I don’t say anything. Monday I started working out to lose some weight and I think it would be better for me and my self-confidence if I achieved my goal. I think if I work hard enough, through my journey of losing weight I’d learn to just love myself for who I am. I think that when I learn that I’ll accomplish anything.
In elementary, middle school and high school i was bullied for my weight so I bullied others to make others feel how I felt.
Dear, Mister Bully
Hey mister bully I know that i’m not wanted but still you put me down about everything and I can’t express how much it makes me sad. You know my dad left me and that my step doesn’t give a damn, and you know how my mom works 3rd shift and we can barely pay our rent and all you ever do is call me names, an a disappointment, but honestly I don’t want to give a damn because my mom always tells me words are nothing compared to fists and that I should not even worry about them, but you just keep saying them, and my mom told me that you would stop but you havn’t and honestly I don’t want to come to school because you ruined my life an obviously you don’t give a damn! Sometime I ask myself do I really deserve this and I think about it all the time and come to think of it I have done nothing to get what you are doing to me so why do you have to take your anger out on me. You say I am useless but I want to say f-u but it’s really bad for me to lose my cool. I think you might need help because all you do is put people down just to make yourself happy and to be honest it is driving me crazy and I bet that is driving other people to go crazy too and that it is not just me. All you do is Push! Push! Push! We know one fights back because everyone is afraid of you…. Well not anymore I am done either you can enjoy your life on this earth or i will leave and you can find someone else to bully.
on first day of schools I was happy but in bus there was boy sit next to me and the girls to like him said”mean thing and word like B word and I was ugly but I didn’t care and at class they throw a paper at mr and call me a loser fat and evil and when I get to home I cry so much and I tell my mom I throw up today at school so I can’t go to school today and I decide to lose weight but my mom was really worried about me and 3 week later I go to school and they saw me make fun of me the boy help me and I lost 4 pound and teacher ask me but I didn’t say anything and it was too much for me and I decide to tell my mom and my mom call the school and teacher help me to stand up then her dad decide to change school of her but I said” no” because I know she was mean to me but I wasn’t but her dad make her grounded.
You also stand up for bully.
AND THANK YOU TO MY TEACHER AND MY FAMILY.
on my phone i’m being called names every day. i do not know who it is