You don’t know me

People, especially children and teenagers have always called me scary, monster, a bully, compulsive liar, the worst human, terrible, etc. I always wanted friends but I kept getting rejected and called so many bad things, ran away from and they laugh at anything right that I have to say. When I got the internet and posted my arts, people were saying it was horrendous, it definitely needs improvement and so many bad things I can’t imagine. They keep lying that they were kind to me when I seen that they were mean to me and nice to everyone else. Once in school, I was introduced to a little girl who was friendly and smiled at everyone but me; she found me mysterious and thought of me as a bully who deserves nothing but insults. When I posted my selfies on the internet, people were calling me ugly and blocking me. This day came when I was ready to reason with my bullies on why they call me a compulsive liar and they kept laughing at what I had to say. They even told me to kill myself, acted like trolls and made fun of my problems and refused to believe it. Then I posted a post for help but people didn’t mind the situations and told me I was the bully (when I’m actually NOT) and they think they know about me when they don’t.

Those are the things people were saying on my post where I ask for help in my plight cyberbullying situation. I WAS and I am a victim of critically severe bullying. I can’t handle this and as a Muslim, I blame god for intending to make my life ‘miserable’.

I don’t want to be the bully, all I want is friends but PEOPLE DRIVE ME to be rude. My family kept insisting they are my friends when I want stranger teenage girls as my friends who would be kind, even good guys. The kids who run from me won’t listen to what I have to say and laugh it off as if I was a bully which I’m not. Please believe that I have a tragic life so it could be fixed, I’m looking forward for a bright life which is hard for me to attain:(