Who made me what I am?

Hello. My name is A, and I’m 16 years old. I am a very shy and social awkward person, and that’s one of many reasons I was bullied. I started to get bullied when I was 11 years old, i was going though puberty, dealing with weird changes in my body and the fact that i just changed schools. I got bullied because of my hair (it’s curly) and my appearence, aswell as my personality.
People called me ugly, worthless, dry, cold, humorless, nerd, and always treated me like garbage. My school was not the best either…People did drugs and smoke behind the gym, brought knifes and guns with them, fought with eachother every single day…And the teachers and janitors didn’t care. Being around that atmosphere most of every day was killing me. I remember coming home feeling so crazy that i had no will to live…I think that what angers me the most is that when I find my old bullies in the street they act like nothing happened…like they didin’t tell me to kill myself…
I was such a happy child, energetic and healthy, and now I am so cold, awkward and depressed. According to my friends I am a gift to be around due to my happy-go-lucky attitude, but I still suffer when I hear someone say “Don’t be so cold” “you should smile more” “why aren’t you happy? everybody is!” –> and It hurts even more if it is my family to say that to me…
I am happy though! I am the black sheep of my family but I am proud. I have great friends and due to my personality changing I am not afraid to stand up to bullies ( i stopped being bullied when i was 15).

If you are being bullied, hang in there kid! Don’t be afraid to express your inner feelings.
Ignore them, they aren’t worth your while♡