The Girl who could never fit in

I was always a victim of bully. It started when I was in 4th grade and the entire school even the teachers started bullying me. Trying to physically hurt me and everyday I would have suicidal thoughts, they would call be by many ugly names and make rumors about me. At a point it was just too much take in, everyone thought that I don’t even deserve to live. In fact even my parents never supported me and said that it was my fault. I thought that probably everyone is right and changing my school would be a good idea but it didn’t help either. In my new school at first everything was fine, people were good to me but then it was the same again just less bullying but hell lot of high school drama. Everyone blamed me for things I didn’t even do and again I became a loner. Due to depression I got fat and then my world just turned upside down. The few friends that I even had all started hating me, the people whom I helped, I trusted all left me in the dark to die. Now no one even cares about me but still make me feel like I’m a miserable person. Everyone makes me feel like I have nothing good in me and kicks me out of every freaking damn group. My depression has reached to an extreme level where I cringe at everything I see and cry. This world has nothing good in it and thus it made me a sadist.