My Story

School life has been an uphill battle for years. Ever since about the fifth grade when I really began to notice it. I was made fun of by the older kids in my class especially the girls. It got to the point where I absolutely refused to change in the locker room. The guys though have also been total jerks. Especially in seventh grade and now this year. It’s either being excluded by my own group in class or feeling that I don’t belong in my group of friends. Sometimes I just want to stay home just to avoid everything. I have actually faked being sick for an entire week just to get away. All to get away from a pathetic nickname. I have no doubts that during that week no one missed me. That everyone was happy I wasn’t there. I know in the back of my mind that they’re just mean. That eventually they’ll grow up. But that’s not what I immediately think of. Ever. I instantly think of how bad it all is… how bad it has gotten, how bad I’ve let it get and how bad I want to just either curl up under a tree and cry or to go home.

I have tried to tell people about my story… Tell them what was going on. Last year during a ‘parent’-teacher conference I tried to tell my aunt and my homeroom teacher what was going on but wound up in tears. Not even being able to get the words out. It’s frustrating just because I get told all the time by my family and friends that are not there at school with me that I’m this amazing person. Then I get to school and people treat me like I’m worthless. They make fun of me and complain about the littlest things that I do, even when half the time the problem is them and not me.

Now… Here’s my advice… and I know that I need to take my own advice, too. Stay strong. That’s the only way to really be able to make it through. Don’t let them see that it gets to you.