everyone attacks me

okay so I always was a kid that everyone was against for some reason. I still am. I’m 13 years old and I have no one to talk to. People always call me fat . Those who were my friends eventually hate me and then they tell my other friends that I’m evil or something and spread rumors. I try to be nice to everyone. I great everyone with a smile. When I finally build up my self esteem someone insults me or attacks me and lowers it again. I only want to make people happy. I fricking cry everyday because of how fricking naive I am. I just want someone to talk to. I used to have someone to talk to but for now I’m not able to talk to them. I honestly only had that person I could trust but now I have no one. Someone please be nice to me. Someone protect me when you see that others are mean to me. When people see that people are mean to me they don’t want to defend me because they don’t want to get into a fight with them. Those who said they would defend me just chicken out at the last moment when I was defending them and then I got into a fight with them. How stupid could I be to forgive someone over and over again when I knew they were trouble.