Bullied as a kid, now an adult, still living the nightmare

I was bullied in highschool, it was an constant ordeal that I never could understand, the bullying got so bad at times I used to fake Illnesses to get out of school early or simply not goto school at all. I was hit , I was picked on, laughed at, constantly put down, I had my locker broken into and my work and things stolen or destroyed. School became such a problem with being bullied I ended up transferring to another school district all together, but by then all the pain and suffering from being bullied followed me to the new school. I ended up missing so much school and losing interest in going to school all together, and believe me I was a good kid, I studied and got good grades, I had many friends but nothing helped the fact I was so paranoid and afraid all the time of being around people I eventually dropped out of school and at the same time I was seeing a psychiatrist and put on medications dealing with depression and aniexty ever since I was 15 years old. I still have not gotten over my past, it still haunts me, I still feel anger and get frustrated for having to deal with that at a very young age.  I just wish it never happened , I didn’t deserve it, no kid does, I have read the news of children committing suicide over being bullied and this should not be going on, children shouldn’t have to fear going to school, it’s horrible that this is still going on, maybe if it’s stopped at a young age there won’t be so much irreversible damage so they can move on and grow up and have success as they grow into young adult hood. Not sure if my story will even help or if it really even makes sense, there is more to my story then I’d like to share because it hurts so much to even think about it or even really wanna discuss it, it was hard enough to even do this. But I do hope maybe sometime in time that bullying will stop, no one deserves to be treated like they are less then nothing , shouldn’t have to feel hopeless or scared of being in school or any where. But more people need to know the short and long term effects about bullying on a single individual because it can really damage your soul, your heart and mind. I would not wish this situation or my situation on anyone. I just only wish it never happened and now was allowed to pursue my dreams and attend school, and learn about life and build for a strong future and have a career waiting for me later in life and not to be mentally ill and have to relive my past over and over again.