A girl who can’t be herself

I have a family of 8 siblings and I am one of the middle child and I am the only one with ADHD and other health problems and everybody would tell me to be myself and I would be okay I will and when I would be myself I would be bullied because of my ADHD and other health problems. I have a group of friends who if they saw someone bullying me they would get in between me and the other person and tell them to go away but then I moved and its been hard for me to find friends like that where I am now. I have been thinking of cutting for a very long time since I was 7 actuality and I listening to DEMI LOVATO songs on the internet because that is the only way that I can listen to her songs and listening to her songs I relate to every single one of them listening to the songs makes me feel like I should stay and helps me to be myself and not to be so depressed. Listening to DEMI’S songs makes me stronger and makes me want to tell someone about some of my health problems that nobody knows about but I can’t tell anybody when I try to tell someone nothing comes out of my mouth. The reason I am still here is because of DEMI LOVATO and my pets if it wasn’t for them I probably wouldn’t be here today.