so hard

my life is just hard and especially I don’t have real friends, I don’t sing with bullies but I just pray for them, sometimes I help the bullies but in return they are hurting and intimidating my feelings. I’ve been ruined a few times because of bullies but even though I’m like this and even though I’m not as good as them to hurt, I have talents that I hide but I don’t bring out just like taekwondo and judo. if only I could have a friend too:(