I went from happy to hurting inside

It started all from when I was younger, I used to be more funny, more chill and goofy, until the bullying started to happen, people walked over me and started to call me names, I was struggling in school and i was pushed to work harder. I had a crush on this one girl but she hated me because I was annoying, and when I was in 8th grade, I had a whole bunch of stress, which led to me breaking down crying, then years later I had friends leave me and others hurting me. Everyone thought of me as a creep.