I Want to be Bullied

Not really a story, more of a problem. I’ve been bullied three times in my life and those are my favorite memories. One of those moments being currently. It doesn’t bother me, I love it. It’s not normal and I don’t want to love it. Honestly, it’s the think I look forward to the most when I go to school. Seeing the bully, and him being mean to me. I remember last year I had a different bully and I was always disappointed when he didn’t show up. I’d mask it and pretend I was happy so no one would judge me. I don’t understand why I’m so happy when this happens to me. We aren’t friends either, they always hated me and made it clear by hitting and cussing at me. I have fun being bullied and I want the fun in that to stop.