alone

so mostly when i was in middle school but also in my 9th grade year i went to a very small school, as i said i had been going there for years, and was absolutely miserable. i dont know to this day if what they did was on purpose, but they seemed to make it their objective to make sure i didn’t fit in, there was never enough room for me at lunch, ever, and they talked about me behind my back alot. i got really depressed, and had some serious issues because i thought that it was my fault, that i was socially awkward, or rude, or not good enough, so i tried to better, and i just got worse and worse. in my experience you can’t just tell an adult about ths kind of bulying. It is almost unnoticable, and is often thougth by outsiders that the victem is antisocial or mean. this hurt me alot all throughout middleschool.