My life

I let people push me around because i am not someone that is mean to others i let them just go on and push me around i need to tell those who do to stop pushing me around and stop being mean to me but i can’t because i am not that person so starting tomorrow anyone who is mean to me or tells me what to do or what ever i don’t like i will stand up for myself and i will make my own rules for me i can’t tell you how many times i go to school and people are mean to me i hid my emotions behind my smile because if i try to express them then i either cry or get in trouble so i will start just letting it out i am not going to take this no more no longer no more people telling me what to do i’m done with people that hurt me you hurt my feelings and you hurt everyone else i just wish people would understand me more i cry myself to sleep because i am sad.I feel like one of those a toy. Something someone plays with for a while then throws away the next day or just stops playing with it. I feel like I am just here so people have someone to hurt. I don’t even feel like anybody cares anymore. I hate me and my life. I don’t understand how I have friends or anything.i try every day to be nice to everyone but all i get back is meanness.why does everyone have to push me around sometimes i feel like just running away but i don’t because i keep myself together and hunter is the only person that is keeping me together every day i come to him for help because he is the only one that i can talk to about these things no one other than him will help me so if anyone ever gets that just not that i’m done with people telling me what to do no only that i can’t do nothing anymore NOTHING i tell you.