Getting bullied

Hi. I’m 12 years old. I’m not a teenager as you can see. I get bullied at school sometimes, but the ones that bully me the most are my friends and my best friend. Because of that I hurt myself. My best friend knows that but she still bullies me. In fact when she found out she started bullying me more. Well it’s not the first time that happened to me. My best friend in kindergarden would call me pregnant because I had a belly. I started thinking of suicidal thoughts when I was 9 years old. And every year got worse for me. Summer is especialy hard because I don’t go to school. I don’t like to go to school but my classmates are there for me so i feel happy. Drawing and listening to music just makes go away from reality and into another universe where it’s calm so that’s why I spend a lot of time drawing in my free time. I still get bullied but I’m happy because I have my classmates there for me.