Bullying needs to stop

I was bullied.By the people i trusted the most.They hit me.Verbally abused me.I didnt give up.But i began to have a mental breakdown.I shut myself from the world thinking it was my fault.I considered suicide but that would hurt those close to me.Im in year 8 now and am…….It feels like im bieng dragged back in that state.The endless pain.The tears.The fake smiles.The teachers who didnt or dont care.Everything is becoming scary.Im falling into depression.I cry silently keep it to myself so no one hears but my mind hears.There is no one there bullying me but i feel alone.I have supportive people surrounding me.WHY! Thats all i ask.Why do we get bullied.Why am i the odd one out.Why am i suffering.Im not there but its a scar on my heart on my mind.It cant go it remains.IM CONFINED IN A TINY SPACE.A TINY WORLD.It feels like that..I didnt ask for this people just turned against me.Flicked me off like i was a germ a disease.I cant get through this.I wont get through this.I try.I wont give up.I have to give up.but do i.I WANT TO END MY LIFE BUT HOW WHY WHEN.WHY ARE THERE NO ANSWERS.HELP ME IM FADING.I CANT GET BACK.IM ALONE.IM AN IDIOT.IS THAT WHY NO ONE LIKES ME.IS THAT WHY EVERYONE HATES ME…..or is it just me dragging my self back.