Bullying for attention

Hi, so I’ve pretty much been bullied most of my school life, in primary and secondary (high school). I have this condition which is known as a lazy eye, and I was bullied for it. I would be called “pirate”, “cockeyed”, “wonky eyed”, “one eyed”. I was called these names for about two years. This is why I have social anxiety and low self esteem. The bullying in high school was the worst, I got really depressed from this. The main reason why I was called things like “cockeyed” and “transvestite” was because of my appearance. I never really saw the point in beauty and wanting to look good enough for anyone. Ive also been in fights in high school because people bullied me.