deaf but not dead

I’m 13 and have been the target of most kids anger and rage since i was four years old because i’m noticeably shorter and weaker. i grew up in a household where i never got the chance to talk about my situation at school and out of school. once elementary school ended, the bullying became more physical, more direct, and more cruel. from grade six to seven, i attended a private school where i was the student most mocked and humiliated in class. i had gotten two concussions in a month, maggots thrown at me, kicked, and things repeatedly thrown at me. the concussions resulted in me having significant hearing loss which i still struggle with today (deafness), i have trouble hearing and have pretty severe tinnitus. i’m in grade 8 now and at a public school where i still get beat up and bullied everyday, but i’m starting to now see that i have to tell someone in order for it to stop. i’m pushing myself to be brave and not listen to what people say about me negatively. and i’m still recovering from suicidal thoughts and behaviours, but there was a point where i thought it would never get better, and if you feel like that just know that it will. we’re still kids and young adults, it’ll get better. i never thought i’d make it out alive, but i did, and you can too. if you don’t feel loved, just know i love you even if i don’t know you. stay strong.